| scared |
[Jan. 19th, 2007|11:56 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | green room | ] |
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| |  gloomy | ] |
i'm scared
of looking back
when i am old
and all i'll see
is a girl
who never lived the life she wanted... |
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| sorry |
[Jan. 7th, 2007|03:11 pm] |
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did a lot of things that i shouldn't have. said a lot of things that i shouldn't have. i lied. i cheated. i'm sorry. i can't turn back the hands of time. i can't change what i've done. it has passed. soon, it will be forgotten. at least i hope so. |
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| thinking |
[Dec. 23rd, 2006|06:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | mayacabac, dauis | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | promiscuous | ] |
haha... twus so funny. pet2x and sandy crashed at my place today. they caught me un-bathed. lol. we were talking and laughing like crazy. they got tons of juicy stuff to spill. talk about guys' raging hormones. damn. it's a good thing that i didn't stay here because if i did, i don't really know if i could concentrate on my studies. haha. sure they have all the fun, but where is it all gonna lead to?
just a thought. |
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| and then she writes |
[Dec. 21st, 2006|06:02 pm] |
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| |  frustrated | ] |
FROM: RAGUBA
TO: MR. R.F.
Sitting beside you
made me realize
how much i want somebody
who truly loves me
who will be by my side no matter what.
Talking to you
made me realize
how much i want somebody
who i can talk to about everything
and not just the good things.
Looking into your eyes
made me realize
how much i want
to look into someone's eyes
with love reflected in them.
Touching you
made me realize
how much i want
passion that's meaningful
and not just for fun.
Holding your hand
made me realize
how much i want
to be protected
and not used.
Kissing you
made me realize
how much i want it
to actually mean something
and not just something to pass the time with.
Being with you
made me realize
that you are
everything that's bad for me.
i don't want fun
i don't want lust
i don't want danger
i just want something real.
...and yet i always come back
everytime i see you
and everytime
you hold me.
let me go.
i don't want this no more.
stay away from me.
let me leave. |
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| you had me at hello |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|12:13 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | green room | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
i don't know why but this line cracked me up... really.
"i don't discriminate... i just hate ALL people."
kostka and xavier will never look the same to me again.
it's funny how a cold smile is sometimes returned with a really warm and welcoming smile. i smiled coldly, just out of politeness and waved my hand. and he just, right there, sipping his coke from McDonald's, smiled and said, "hello!" with a friendly tone. that really caught me offguard. it's my happy thought for the week.
====this is a secret==== lol. |
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| today |
[Dec. 7th, 2006|11:42 pm] |
pos194 quiz wasn't that bad. the choices just took me by surprise though. so far, i got the idea but im a little worried about my sentence construction and the words that i used. i just think i could've done something a little bit more than okey.
i met up with ate lili after pos194. she bought me food and she treated me to lunch at max's. and yep, we exchanged a lot of stories to try to go back to where we left off. the whole time i spent with her lifted my spirit. it was exactly what i needed.
im sure u cud still recall that today's kc's bday. let me just share with you a weird coincidence. remember the story i told u about the boy who wore fitting pants when he came to my house in bohol? it just so happens that he was born on the same day, yep december 7, just like kc. ha! recalling this image of a boy wearing tight fitting pants in my mind still cracks me up until now. sorry dude. it was just too funny to forget. oh well.
happy bday to you KC and Amog. |
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| it's kc's bday |
[Dec. 7th, 2006|01:38 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | green room | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | electric fan | ] |
it's my room mate's bday today! weeee...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KC SO! love you...
i've begun working on my powerpoint project. i can't stop worrying about it. i'll be using the Philippines as my country case. go me.
sure hope pos194 quiz will be a breeze. wooosh~~
i'm gonna meet ate lili today! hurrah! i'm so excited.
ANNOUNCEMENT:
b0oyah! the insomniac is back! |
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| ~love~ |
[Dec. 5th, 2006|11:14 pm] |
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i don't know if this is some defense mechanism crap but yeah, everytime i think about love, you know, romantic love, it makes me wanna puke. blech. :p |
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| miss my kinfolk so bad |
[Dec. 3rd, 2006|10:18 pm] |
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hahaha... it's really fun to chat with my cousin. i love her. |
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| random blab |
[Oct. 26th, 2006|10:13 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | house | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | aircon | ] |
my friends and i got drunk last night. it was so funny because my two bestfriends were literally rolling down the floor. mandy was even crawling on the floor. i guess when she gets drunk she goes back to her baby days. haha. i don't ever want to forget last night. i was so freaking scared because my parents were sleeping in their room and we were so noisy outside the house. i was just so scared that they'd wake up and find me drunk. harhar. good thing i still had some sense in me not to make too much noise. but boy was i bugging our "boy" last night. i asked him to cook the squid and in the end i didn't eat the squid. i ate the crab instead. the boys were all teasing me because i didn't know how to distinguish a squid from a crab when they are totally different "sea creatures". uhh whatever. duh. a crab has a shell and a squid does not. that's one example. i had to hide my friends too because i didn't want my parents to wake up and find them cuddling with their bfs. sheeesh. couples. blech. :p oh yeah, one thing that really cracked me up though was when i found out that ate marissa and je-je thought the guy my friends brought with them was gay because he was wearing tight fitting pants. damn! but he wasn't gay. it was just his style. but dude?! it looks really uncomfortable. if i were a guy, i wouldn't wear fitting pants. but they complimented him for his shapely butt though. how disgusting. blech :p again. okey... gotta get back to getting my zzzz's. later. |
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| home sweet home |
[Oct. 22nd, 2006|03:12 am] |
i arrived here in bohol at 740 in the morning yesterday. and boy was i freaking tired... but i was too excited with our new house far from the busy streets of the city...
but when i finally got here at the new house, i couldn't fight off sleep... so i had to take a nap before heading out to explore the beach and the pretty wide lot that we have... our new house is not that big, but yeah, it's big. i love my bathroom! it's almost the same size as my room. i could spread a mat and doze off there too. haha! this is the first time that i actually have my own bathroom in my own room. cooooool. the view is not that bad, not that bad at all. our house is overlooking the sea and it's just oh so peaceful. i love it here. it's the perfect place to spend my sembreak and just relax... |
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| i'm through being dead |
[Oct. 17th, 2006|10:46 am] |
resurrection!
i'm through with my hi165 finals (fr. arcilla) and my philo101 orals. i've been stressing over them since last week. history readings were like two thousand pages or more and i had to finish them before saturday so i could start reviewing for philo. i guess i got stressed because i scheduled these 2 finals on the same day. tuesday, today. hi165 in the morning and philo orals in the afternoon.
and whoop-di-doo!
i'm through with tuesday. i'm through being dead. let's see. 3 nights without sleep and more than 5 days of non-stop reading for history and philosophy is no funny business. it's no laughing matter.
fr. arcilla tripped on the stairs at secC. the guards were shocked and they weren't really able to help him out immediately. i guess they needed time to get over their "shock." paulo, a hi165 classmate, felt the need to go to fr. arcilla and ask if he was okey. and so far, he was still able to pick himself up and walk back up the stairs again. a healthy boy, indeed. harhar. as if he's still a boy. kc tells me he enjoys hiking and walking around ateneo wearing shorts. :D hehehe... healthy boy.
my dad's coming tomorrow.
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| philo mode |
[Oct. 12th, 2006|02:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dorm | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
"...in this destiny is my life's task."
m luvng that line. :D |
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| how evil |
[Oct. 10th, 2006|12:02 pm] |
| You Are 36% Evil | 
A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil. |
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| ahhh bought a new old phone |
[Oct. 9th, 2006|03:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dorm | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | silence | ] |
i didn't have the time to go to the mall and have my phone reformatted. so i just bought an oldey. harhar. 3310 for 1k. i just miss texting badly. i miss a lot of people already. so when i got the phone and turned it on, i immediately texted my mom and my friends. i miss them so. *sigh* can't wait for sembreak.
when i get home to bohol, im gonna have my phone (the one that got broken of course) reformatted. and then maybe i'll buy a Globe sim. that way i have one phone for smart and one for globe. yay? sheesh.
***why do i miss you so when i don't even know you that well?*** |
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| ...***... |
[Oct. 7th, 2006|07:29 pm] |
can we just lie here
let's forget the world
... when i look at you
i don't know what i'm fighting for.
i can't make things better
neither can you
but just this once
can we just lie here
let's forget the world
cause i don't know what i'm fighting for. |
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| sick |
[Oct. 5th, 2006|08:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dorm | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  angry | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | life's a bitch | ] |
i hate this week. ateneo's loss to ust kicked it off. after watching the game in ss avr, it was raining. huh. i didn't have an umbrella, yet again. so, me and my dormmates had to walk. makes me want to kill the guy singing happily "im singing in the rain, what a glorious feeling." pft. pardon me, i'm just sick.
tuesday was hellday. pos130 orals and then pos116 long exam. i went to school at 7:45 because my orals was set at 8:15. i didn't know where the venue was because it was not disclosed in miss lao's email. so i figured it would be held at the classroom since it said in the email that orals was during classtime. so at 7:45 i was already in bel308. nobody was there. and then i saw diega and mike. diega started calling people to ask about the venue. bj arrived and tasha too and then love. and at 8:10am, we found out that it was supposed to be at the polsci department. so... datdadadann... morning exercise... briskwalking. fudge. i didnt get enuf sleep the previous night so i was really not into the whole briskwalking for pos130 orals thing. so we got there, we got it over with. after the orals, i was already late for my history class so i had to briskwalk again to bellarmine hall and go up 2 floors. tsk...oh and i didn't eat breakfast. so no breakfast+ no sleep+ briskwalking back and forth bellarmine = headache
after my history class, i went back to the dorm. i decided to take a powernap. and no, it doesn't work. i woke up and i had to force myself to review my notes and ppt presentations despite my throbbing head and my TONSILITIS, yet again! grrrr... i went to school at 4:25, got there on time. i took the test and boy do i hate HER.!!! what kind of a test was that?! for sure i got an F. no doubt about that! thanks ha!!!
"kamusta pos116?"
"P-A-N-G-E-T!!!"
wednesday, headache was still there, tonsilitis was still there. i didn't take any medicine because i didn't think that it was going to be serious. anyways, i forgot that i had a mass slot in the morning. booo to me. :(
afternoon, earthquake drill. if the earthquake was real, i would have died in sec walkway. :p
wednesday night, my body temperature went up. i was burning up. i was shivering like crazy. what made me even more sick was that i had to finish my analytical paper!!! pero naman! who can think with a headache, tonsilitis, colds and fever?!??! so there. i bought paracetamol. i took it. (im still taking it until now). so i wasn't able to finish my paper last night. i figured that writing it while i had fever would ultimately result to a crappy paper. i had to get some sleep. my body needed it badly.
when i woke up this morning, i didn't feel any better. and i HAD TO WRITE MY STUPID PAPER. i pushed myself so hard. i cut my history class. i didn't go to school to distribute the survey questionnaires with gino. why? i had fever plus i had to finish my paper. there. im sorry. thankfully, i finished my paper at around 2pm. i slept. i woke up at 4pm. went to school. printed my paper at lib annex. went to secA for pos116. passed my paper. and came back here. cut my philo class again. thesis statements and a review were supposed to be given today. i asked jam to sign me up for orals schedule and to get me a copy of the thesis statements too. my head and my body just couldn't take it anymore. and right now, i don't know why i'm facing this damned computer and making an lj account when my head is still throbbing.
I AM JUST SO ANGRRRRRYYY AND PISSED. I FEEL SO CURSED. |
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| made a mistake |
[Sep. 23rd, 2006|05:56 pm] |
when it rains, it pours. and i mean that literally.
i woke up at 11.30am today and it was truly hard to get out of bed. i thought about not going to the seminar. kc saw me lying in bed and she asked, "you're supposed to go somewhere today, right?" i answered, "yeah. at 12.30." so i got up, took a shower and changed. when i was about to go out of the dorm, it looked like it was about to rain. so i looked for my umbrella. then i realized that i left my umbrella outside the chapel. *booo. good thing my dorm mate had an extra umbrella that i could borrow. nweys, when i arrived at the overpass, tugsh. i thought there was a storm or something. i got wet. i didn't want to walk from the overpass to sec b because it was really pouring. so i waited. and then dea arrived. she didn't have an umbrella. she also left her umbrella outside the chapel.
good thing rey called. thank God for tin and rey.
i attended the seminar. and boy was father arnel a good speaker, real funny too. he's really cute. harhar. sabi nga niya dumudugo na raw ilong ko sa kakatawa.
yes, i admit. i made a mistake. the seminar didn't make me feel bad. in fact, it made me feel light inside. especially when maui and romee told me that they missed me. *awww. i had fun. |
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| weeeeee pilot survey |
[Sep. 22nd, 2006|08:07 am] |
yes! pumayag si dacudao na magsurvey kami sa class nila. weeee. come on baby let's go! |
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| hanggang ngayon |
[Sep. 21st, 2006|12:25 am] |
hanggang ngayon, napapangiti pa rin ako...
kinikilig pa rin...
game time na...
lulundagin ko na...
risk kung risk...
hahayyy... sana tlga magkakaroon ako ng lakas ng loob...
tis my last and only chance...
sana talaga magiging close ko siya...
sana din mapapangiti ko na naman siya...
at sana naman mapapangiti din niya ako! ;p |
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